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My Abilify Maintena Journey -Week 3/19 to 3/25

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0.0 = Low >| 2.5 > = manageable | 4 > = high

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Sunday 3/25/18


Saturday 3/24/18

So far today I have been lazy. I worked till 5am then had breakfast with George. After I slept for like 3 hours. When I go up I didn’t do much but I got my sister to the store and stuff for good will in my car.

Oh and I packed some too.


Friday: 3/23/18

So i worked today. Made some phone calls and want to work so more. This cold has me down but not out.

I am differently handling things better because the voices are not beating me down all the time. Yes for the first time in years, more then i can remember, I had a moment of no voices. And they seem like them been tamed, like the Abilify Maintena has hit the mute button and the volume is turned down. I can think for myself without their influence.

I will say my depression has been up but that is because for the first time in years I have had a chance to think. To think about my wasted years, to think about auctions that i didd driven by the voices. But I am not down. I have been working and that kind of thing would in the past cause me to stay in bed all day and hide from life. But I do not want to hide from life.

The 2nd first I have had this week is I realized that with all that is going on

  • house losing power
  • money being way tight because of new payment time at my one contract
  • old car dying and having to get a new one.
  • starting a new contract
  • losing 10 days of work this month.

that i don’t want to die, that my passive sucidal thought have gone away. The thoughts that “I would not try to kill myself but I also would not move out the way of death” are not there. I kinda want to see what the future has for me. I want to see how good life can get with Abilify Maintena

  1. Symptoms in my head:
    • Voices @2.5
    • Bad thoughts @1.5
    • Feeling/Seeing bugs @0
    • Shadow People @0
    • Normal People that aren’t real @0
    • Other Visual Hallucinations @0
    • Knocking on walls or doors @1
  2. Depressed, Or hopeless @2.5
  3. Little Interest in doing things @0
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @0
  5. Trouble concentrating @1.5
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @0
  7. Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @0
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @1.5
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @ 4
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @4
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @2.5
  8. Easiness to leave the house @no trouble now
  9. Cat Fred, @0

 


Thursday: 3/22/18:

This week has been crazy. But I am feeling great!!!! I am feeling not down. I am feeling not hopeless. I am feeling maybe happy, idk. But I am doing more, working more, not freaking out more. And just over all better.

Plans today: I got a list of calls to make. I want to do some runs. And make some money.

And I got 80% of everything I wanted to get done done. Yay mike

  1. Symptoms in my head:
    • Voices @
    • Bad thoughts @
    • Feeling/Seeing bugs @
    • Shadow People @
    • Normal People that aren’t real @
    • Other Visual Hallucinations @
    • Knocking on walls or doors @
  2. Depressed, Or hopeless @
  3. Little Interest in doing things @
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @
  5. Trouble concentrating @
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @
  7. Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @ 4
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @
  8. Easiness to leave the house @
    • (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t)
  9. Cat Fred, ()

Wednesday 3/21/18:

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Tuesday 3/20/18:

 


Monday 3/19/18:

I drove like 800 miles. what a crazy day.


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You may have better or worse experience.

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