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My Abilify Maintena Journey – Week of 3.12 to 3.18.2018

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Sunday 3/18/18

I have been busy all week. I have more every it is easier to be outside. My anxiety comes but goes so so so much faster. I found myself outside of my house I’m more then in it this week. Idk if I can even remember a week as good as this one. Their might just be a light at the end if this tunnel


Saturday 3/17/18

9:12am

I don’t have many plans because I still feel sick, my nose is stuffy, and I am still coughing like crazy.

But still I am going to Uber today to help get the people who drink home.

  • Voices @
  • Bad thoughts @
  • Feeling/Seeing bugs @
  • Shadow People @
  • Normal People that aren’t real @idk
  • Other Visual Hallucinations @
  • Knocking on walls or doors @
  • Depressed, Or hopeless @
  • Little Interest in doing things @
  • Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @
  • Trouble concentrating @
  • Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @
  • Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @
  • Easiness to leave the house @
  • Cat Fred @0

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Friday: 3/16/18

I woke up around 5am but rolled over and went back to bed I just wasn’t ready for the day at all.

Had a really busy day. I drove from 8am to about 3am.

I am feeling different. I thought I was going to be manic but maybe my idea of manic is wrong. Maybe this is how normal feels.

  1. Symptoms in my head:
    • Voices @3
    • Bad thoughts @2
    • Feeling/Seeing bugs @0
    • Shadow People @0
    • Normal People that aren’t real @idk
    • Other Visual Hallucinations @1
    • Knocking on walls or doors @0
  2. Depressed, Or hopeless @0
  3. Little Interest in doing things @2.5
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @0
  5. Trouble concentrating @2
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @2
  7. Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @3.5
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @4.5
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @5
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @2.5
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @5
  8. Easiness to leave the house @1.5
  9. Cat Fred @0

Thursday: 3/15/18:

6:21 am

Woke up at about 5:30 am

I have to help George and get Cera home this morning. Still all stuffy and congested. But over all feeling up beat about the day.

10:40pm

Well I got everything I wanted done today. Helped George, 3 runs, and got more of the cats room done.

Then the power stoped working in the lights in the cats room and my bathroom. It is like you take one step up that hill of life and life throws five rocks at your head and knocks you back 5 stets. Fuck.

Not doing \/ because of crisis of my power. I hope something good happens tomorrow.

  1. Symptoms in my head:
    • Voices @
    • Bad thoughts @
    • Feeling/Seeing bugs @
    • Shadow People @0
    • Normal People that aren’t real @idk
    • Other Visual Hallucinations @
    • Knocking on walls or doors @0
  2. Depressed, Or hopeless @
  3. Little Interest in doing things @
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @0
  5. Trouble concentrating @0
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @
  7. Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @
  8. Easiness to leave the house @
  9. Cat Fred @0

Please note: That my experience may be different then yours because we are all different.


Wednesday 3/14/18:

Woke up at 6am ish again.

I am not feeling well so I am taking it easy today and resting. That being said this is what is on my agenda.

  • Call Case Manager
  • See Case Manager (if he wants bc I am sick)
  • Hopefully have one or two runs.
  • Start work on my company website.

I would like to note that my apatite has become normal again. I have not really been emotional / stress eating. I also have been making better choices at the store and buying less junk food. So with hope I say I think my weight will get lower because of Abilify Maintena.

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Well I got most everything I wanted to done and will work on the rest in the morning after I help George.

I still feel sick and am not over what ever I cough,

  1. Symptoms in my head:
    • Voices @3
    • Bad thoughts @ 5
    • Feeling/Seeing bugs @ 2.5
    • Shadow People @0
    • Normal People that aren’t real @idk
    • Other Visual Hallucinations @2
    • Knocking on walls or doors @0
  2. Depressed, Or hopeless @1
  3. Little Interest in doing things @2.5
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much @0
  5. Trouble concentrating @0
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating @1.8
  7. Thoughts:
    1. “You would be better off dead” @4
    2. “You are a screw up or failure” {General} @5
    3. “You are a screw up or failure as a father” @ 4
    4. “You are a screw up or failure at your job(s)” @5
    5. “That people just want to use you and throw you away like trash” @5
  8. Easiness to leave the house @1
  9. Cat Fred @0

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Tuesday 3/13/18:

Woke up at 6am on the dot about an hour before I set my alarm for. I been only sleeping like 6 hours max again.

Things on my to do list are.

  • John washing clothes
  • Mom & Cera washing Clothes
  • Taking Mom & Cera to the store
  • Working hopefully
  • Vacuum my whole home

I got everything done but Mom & Cera’s wash.

But we will see what all gets done.

Went to bed about 11:15p

  1. Symptoms: Voices, (4) | Bad thoughts, (2)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (2) | Shadow People, (0.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (idk) | Other Visual Hallucinations (1) | Knocking on walls or doors (3) |Cat Fred, (0)
  2. Feeling: Depressed, Or hopeless (2)
  3. Little Interest in doing things (0)
  4. Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (4)
  5. Trouble concentrating (0)
  6. Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating (2)
  7. Thoughts:
    • “You would be better off dead” (4)
    • “You are a screw up or failure” (3.5)
    • “You are a screw up or failure as a father” (5.0)
    • “You are a screw up or failure at your jobs” (0)
  8. Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (2)
  9. Easiness to leave the house (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t) (2.5)

Monday 3/12/18:

I had one run and had to go to the hospital today because I am sick in am. And was dehydrated. But they pumped me full of water and sent me home after I refused to be signed in. But I missed my appointment with Lisa my therapist. Which is not good and something I did not want to happen.

  1. Symptoms: Voices, (4) | Bad thoughts, (2)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (2) | Shadow People, (0.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (1) | Knocking on walls or doors (3) |Cat Fred, (0)
  2. Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (0.0) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (4) | Trouble concentrating on things (0.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (0.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (4)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (3.5)
  3. Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5.0)
  4. Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (0)
  5. Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (2)
  6. Easiness to leave the house (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t) (2.5)

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You may have better or worse experience.

This is just me sharing my experience for all to read.


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