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My Abilify Maintena Journey – Week of 2.26.18 to 3.3.2018

Saturday 3/3/18:

I did not leave the house. No runs.

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (4) | Bad thoughts, (3.5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1) | Shadow People, (0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (2.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (1) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (3.9) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (0.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (4.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (5.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (2.5)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (5)

Easiness to leave the house (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t) (N/A)


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Friday 3/2/18:

I am here at chestnut ridge waiting on the nurse to give me my first shot. I an nervous and have lots of anxiety. I do not know if this will work but I have hope it will. And in the past hope has always been a bad thing cause it makes the fall farther.

I also had a 300+ round trip run today. It was nice to get outside of my head and just cruse down the highway(s).

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (5) | Bad thoughts, (5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1) | Shadow People, (3) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (2.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (1) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2.5) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (0.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (4.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (5.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (2.5)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (5)

Easiness to leave the house (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t) (4)


Thursday 3/1/18:

I had to long runs today and didn’t do much else.

Didn’t do by the numbers today


Please note: That my experience may be different then yours because we are all different.


Wednesday 2/28/18 – Today I had to go back down to Marshes. I feel bad for the guy who works the counter and what he has to deal with. Then I worked on moving things around in my trailer and some DIY projects. As of 15:30 I have gotten no runs. I always start to think the worst when this happens. So just tiring to keep myself busy.

I didn’t have an runs today and all I kept thing is that they are made because my car was in the shop and I couldn’t run. Maybe I lost my sonority and am no longer 3rd call. I seen shit like that happen. And on my day back I was told they are changing the pay structure. Is that a move to make me walk away? I guess only God knows the Hart of men. I hope I am wrong. I hope I am over reacting.

A friend did come over and hang out for a few hours and I didn’t get my tax stuff for the money together and put away labeled. I have been feeling productive but randomly. I keep jumping from project to project.

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (5) | Bad thoughts, (5)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (0.0) | Shadow People, (0.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (0.0) | Knocking on walls or doors (2) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (2.5) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (2.5) | Trouble concentrating on things (4.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (5) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (4)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (3.9)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (5.0)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (0.0)

Easiness to leave the house (1-5 One being easy 5 being couldn’t) (2.5)


Tuesday 2/27/18 – I woke up around 8am again and stayed up. I had some runs and my car started doing that would not shift thing again. So I took it back to Marshes Auto. He told me to get the part new and bring it in on Wednesday morning. Then I had another run. o

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (5.0) | Bad thoughts, (5.0)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1.0) | Shadow People, (0.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (3.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (1.0) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (5.0) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (2.0) | Trouble concentrating on things (3.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (5.0+) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (3.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (5.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (4.0)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (4.0)

Easiness to leave the house (2.5)


Monday 2/26/18 – I woke up and stayed up at around 8am. Then my case manager came around 9am. Talked with him about everything in till about 12:30p. Then rushed up to chestnut ridge to find out I imputed the wrong time and my appointment with Lisa is not till 2pm.

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (0.0) | Bad thoughts, (0.0)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (0.0) | Shadow People, (0.0) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (0.0) | Knocking on walls or doors (0.0) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (0.0) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (0.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (0.0) | Trouble concentrating on things (0.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (0.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (0.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (0.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (0.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (0.0)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (0.0)

Easiness to leave the house (0.0)


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Sunday, 2/25/18I didn’t do anything all day but stay home and play on the computer.

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (4.2) | Bad thoughts, (3.0)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (1.0) | Shadow People, (2.5) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (2.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (2.0) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling : Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (3.2) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (1.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (0.0) | Trouble concentrating on things (4.5) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (4.5) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (2.5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (3.00)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (4.5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (0.0)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (2.5)

Easiness to leave the house (N/A didn’t leave home today)


Instead of just having a post for these days I am including them two days below.


Saturday, 2/24/18I did a little running around with a friend and helped him fix a hanging lamp.

{0.0 Low > 2.5 manageable / 4 > high}

Symptoms: Voices, (5.0) | Bad thoughts, (5.0)| Feeling/Seeing bugs, (0.5) | Shadow People, (3.5) | Normal People that aren’t real, (???) | Other Visual Hallucinations, (2.5) | Knocking on walls or doors (1.0) |Cat Fred, (0)

Feeling: Down, Depressed, Or hopeless (4.0) | Little Interest or pleasure in doing things (3.0)| Trouble failing asleep or sleeping to much (0.0) | Trouble concentrating on things (4.0) | Poor appetite or wanting to/overeating or (5.0) | Thoughts you would be better off dead (4.5)| Thought of your a screw up or failure (3.0)| Thought of your a screw up or failure as a father (5.0+)| Thought of your a screw up or failure at your jobs (0.0)| Thought that people just want to use you and throw you away like trash (0.5)

Easiness to leave the house (N/A didn’t leave home today)

On 2/23 Dr Jeff called in a script for Abilify 10mg pills because he had to see if I could tolerate it. Then on 3/2/18 I go in for my first shot of Abilify Maintena.

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Please note that my experience my not be the same one you may have on Abilify Maintena.

You may have better or worse experience.

This is just me sharing my experience for all to read.


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