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When you try to eat to feel something


I bought Sweet~N~Sour Chicken with fried rice with Egg Roll, Plus an extra small shrimp fried rice with Crab Lagoons. I then bought from the dollar store a bag of UTZ chips, 5 pk Reese cups, 5p Take 5, 5 pk Kit Kat, a thing of Strawberry sugar Wafers, a 8oz pack of fudge dipped shortbread cookies, 2 packs of 6 Oreo cookies, 2pks of 4 Chip Ahoy Original cookies, 3 1/2 oz bag of Cheetos and 13oz of Duplex sandwich cream cookies. Oh and 1/2 gallon of milk and a 12fl oz of Canada Dry Ginger.

I paid around 40.00 for all this. To try to feel the pain inside because I feel numb. And after a week of smoking weed and feeling something I want to feel something again. I don’t care if it is pain or happy.

The lady at the Chinese restraint thought I order so much it must have been for two. img_20170209_124740

I hate this pain, I hate being alone, I have tried skinny, I have tried fat. I just want to be dead.  can’t cut anymore, I can’t find weed anymore the on;y pain I can have it when my stomach is so full I am about to vomit. So I put forty dollars on my credit card that I do not have to do this.

I wish someone would just kill me. I am a waste of space taking up someone else oxygen.


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