The Story of Mike, My Fight For Lilly & My Defective Mind. Home Of: MichaleJGranata.com & LillyMakar.com
I have two personal goals fighting each other.
1st goal is that I want to work and prove that I’m not so broken that I can’t contribute to society. Not to mention the satisfaction one gets by cashing a pay check v.s. getting money just handed to you.
2nd is that I want to stay as mentally healthy as possible. Which means going to my therapist appointment, go to my doctor’s appointment, seeing my case manager. Not only going but listening to their advice and, outside of my head,opinions.
Lately I have not been able to keep a balance. I have been putting work first. The void that not having Lilly around to be the 1st thing in my life. God I miss her, but for a few months I was lost. The hurt took over, not to say it doesn’t still hurt, i just figured out how to not let this new kind of pain run wild in my life.
When the system will not work for you, you have to work the system.
If I can balance I feel like I failed both goals. Something to work on, Something to add to the day to day struggle.
“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick
“The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don’t always spoil the good things and make them unimportant.” — Doctor Who
“The only valid censorship of ideas is the right of people not to listen.” – Tom Smothers
“Who controls the past controls the future. Who controls the present controls the past.” ― George Orwell
“If you don’t work on important problems, it’s not likely that you’ll do important work”. – Richard Hamming
“Being in a minority, even in a minority of one, did not make you mad. There was truth and there was untruth, and if you clung to the truth even against the whole world, you were not mad.” – Orwell