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Even thou I am not on the Saphris right now does not mean I am not logging how I feel on the other two and that my dr might not talk me into talking it again. I just have concerns.
I am only taking the Latuda and klonopin right now but see my PDoc on Friday.
Slept all day
9:56am – Doing okay today, not too down or tired but I did just sleep two days straight basically.
10:55am – Meeting friend at pizza joint. So trying.
4:12am – Incorporating more positive self talk into my day, mostly when driving. “I am worth it” is something I want to say 1000 times a day. Fake it to you make it right.
Still just taking the teo meds. Unsure if I want to add anything until the self talk takes effect. You can change with out pills I keep telling myself. Dr may not be happy but its my life success or success. 🙂
2:55am – Feeling more positive after all the affirmations I am doing. Making plans for the future and looking for a better job.
-Slept okay after meds made me nervous. I think the generic of klonopin has a negative effectiveness on me. Even made pizza for dinner and packed my lunch so hoping to save money.
5:57am – getting sick again :(. But I feel okay, I feel not overwhelming sad. Lonely yes, bored yes, really sad no. I wish I could sleep better but that should come with a schedule.
1:09am – Feeling tired, feeling maybe down, feeling sickish. I keep on affirming myself. This may just be my feeling sick or I am a rapid cycle. I don’t know. I do see my PDoc on Friday.
-I am tiring to turn my day around sleep in the am and up before work (pm) so I can start groups and A.A.
3:23am – feeling not so sick but still tired. I woke up a dozen times today when I tried to sleep.
– See the doctor today and have a plan for a long day so it can spend the whole weekend with my daughter. Two whole days. 🙂 Going to talk to my doctor about getting on a antidepressant.
– Still using my affirmation ever day trying to be more positive.
12:46pm – waiting for my pdoc and got an interview at 2pm at Arrons. I have to keep thinking I am worth it. I am worth it.
“Reality is that which, when you stop believing in it, doesn’t go away.” – Philip K. Dick
“The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don’t always spoil the good things and make them unimportant.” — Doctor Who
“The only valid censorship of ideas is the right of people not to listen.” – Tom Smothers
“Who controls the past controls the future. Who controls the present controls the past.” ― George Orwell
“If you don’t work on important problems, it’s not likely that you’ll do important work”. – Richard Hamming
“Being in a minority, even in a minority of one, did not make you mad. There was truth and there was untruth, and if you clung to the truth even against the whole world, you were not mad.” – Orwell
“When you want to fool the world, tell the truth.” Otto von Bismarck