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All Things Panda & Blaze

I made this page for everyone that wants to follow what Panda & Blaze are up to. And my battle with the ants and keeping said ants off of the … Continue reading

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My struggle To Be Part Of My Daughter, Lilly Makar ‘s, Life

>Last updated 2/13/2018 …. Its been 2 days since I last seen Lilly …. 1.75 hours spent with Lilly in 2018< This page was started to as a place for … Continue reading

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Things I See 2/19/2018

I got an GPS unit now. It’s a Garmin. I love seeing wind turbines aroud where I go. . If you liked this post, please hit that like button. Posted … Continue reading

February 19, 2018 · Leave a comment

Panda got a Petsafe pounce today 2/16/18 w/video.

So one of the two things I bought for my furbabies was the PetSafe Pounce cat toy. I paid $27.95 (2/18) and got it from PetSafe’s eBay store. Visit their … Continue reading

February 16, 2018 · 1 Comment

I bought a Petsafe Slimcat Feeder Ball w/video

So the back story: I buy Greenies feline treats for panda because they help with hair balls, skin and Fur, and dental. [Click Here 4 Greenies Site]. But panda likes … Continue reading

February 15, 2018 · 2 Comments

I bought Lilly a subscription to national geographic magazine.

Love you Lilly Miss you Lilly Always thinking of you Lilly. So I bought you a subscription to national geographic magazine. I hope it helps and inspires you. Because I … Continue reading

February 13, 2018 · 1 Comment

MichaelJGranata.com is now on Facebook!

Please like us on Facebook {Click Here} so you don’t miss a thing. I know I have lots of subscribers so I am hoping that the likes add up quickly. … Continue reading

February 13, 2018 · Leave a comment

Seen my (new) Chestnut Ridge therapist, Lisa, today.

So it has been about a year since I last seen Lisa Harenski. And in full disclosure I only seen her twice at Chestnut Ridges old location in Greensburg. But … Continue reading

February 12, 2018 · Leave a comment

Amanda Makar thinks I am blackmailing her.

So back story here is when Amanda Makar first told me that I she kept my daughter with her, Lilly Makar was six at the time, I told Amanda I … Continue reading

February 12, 2018 · 3 Comments

DIY vehicle trash can.

So I was online yesterday and I was looking for one of those hanging trash bags you can. unless I wanted to wait 6 months for at the float over … Continue reading

February 12, 2018 · Leave a comment

Valentine’s Day card, to Lilly. 2018

I bought my daughter a Valentine’s card today

February 12, 2018 · Leave a comment

Important according to our magic sauce.

I maybe late to the party on this one but I laughed my ass off at it. Expiation: When you mark an email in Gmail it says “Important according to … Continue reading

February 9, 2018 · Leave a comment

Things I See 2.8.2018

So today was a slow day for me. I didn’t get my first Brian until about like 1 ish in the afternoon and it was only a local one, to … Continue reading

February 9, 2018 · Leave a comment

Oklahoma city

I just hear that the suburbs of Oklahoma has been the leading area in the united states for Tornadoes on The Weather Channel. And I thought “Who the fuck buys … Continue reading

February 8, 2018 · Leave a comment

Things I see 2.7.2018

2.7.2p18.12:41 I went to Washington and Jefferson Hills Pennsylvania today.   I want to buy a better camera and take better shots of things but I am unsure if it … Continue reading

February 7, 2018 · Leave a comment

Things I See

Today 2.6.2018 I went Warren, Cranberry and Pittsburgh Pennsylvania today. The roads where not so good so I didn’t get to take many pics. Click here for more ‘things I … Continue reading

February 6, 2018 · Leave a comment

Things I See 2.5.2018

10 miles over the speed limit will not save you much time. But it will cost you money in gas. Or even get yourself a ticket. Do you want to speed to your own ticket?

February 5, 2018 · Leave a comment

~ Of The Day ~

Double standard: Why do Fathers’ get put in jail for not being able to pay for their kids while Mothers’ get a reward, by getting welfare? 2.4.2018.10:16 2.4.2018.13:21 2.4.2018.13:24 If … Continue reading

February 4, 2018 · Leave a comment

Things I see 2.3.2018v1

This is my first post like this. So it may contain more pictures then future post because I’ve always looked at some things and said I should take a picture … Continue reading

February 3, 2018 · Leave a comment

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is oranges called that because the color or is the color named after the fruit

February 3, 2018 · Leave a comment

Are you here because you want to be or are you a prisoner

Question mark If you liked this post, please hit that like button. &..@.-#–@.-#…@.–**|\/|1|<3**—@–#.@….-#..—-@& Posted By: Michael J Granata Contact: 724-383-6008 = Google Voice MichaelJGranata@gmail.com MichaeJGranata.com Since 2016 LillyMakar.com Since 2016 … Continue reading

February 3, 2018 · Leave a comment

Reason for not liking people. #1 (2018 February)

People who wait till last minute suck. People who wait till the last minute and don’t give a s*** that they’ve thrown your whole day off because they said they … Continue reading

February 2, 2018 · Leave a comment

Ever hear of Pizzamouth Challenge? ……. hiRant 1

Ever hear of pizzamouth challenge? This is what you do . . . . . wait why the duck would you do any stupid challenge because someone put it online. … Continue reading

February 1, 2018 · Leave a comment

Bought Panda another toy.

Panda, the cat I reluctantly took in, and I now Love has a new toy. I bought her a PetSafe brand bolt automatic laser light. Because she love chasing the … Continue reading

January 26, 2018 · 2 Comments

January 26st of 2018

Today I woke up at 10 till 5 in the morning. I woke up to the feeling of someone stabbing me in the back of my head, or at least … Continue reading

January 26, 2018 · Leave a comment

My return to Chestnut Ridge Counseling

So I finally got fed up the Family Behavioral Resources  and the 305. So I went in today, January 23rd 2018, for my intake appointment with Chestnut Ridge Counseling in … Continue reading

January 23, 2018 · Leave a comment

Mailed out January’s Miss You & Love you card to Lilly

On January 19th 2018 I mailed Lilly Makar, to her Latrobe Pa home, out a nice card I bought from Wal-Mart. And some stamps. Lilly told me the last time … Continue reading

January 23, 2018 · 2 Comments

The frustrating thing about Identity theft

So on Saturday 1/20/18 I revived my first call from Arizona Central Credit Union a bank in which I never had an account and a state which I believe I … Continue reading

January 22, 2018 · Leave a comment

What Deism means to me.

I believe this, that God exists. Not a shocker because you read the title. But I believe He made us and gave us his laws in the old testament and … Continue reading

January 20, 2018 · Leave a comment

Person & Game

If I would right a book or movie it would be set in the future, a Person buys the newest program for Person’s ‘entertainment world’. It would open to a … Continue reading

January 13, 2018 · Leave a comment

My attempt to make a DIY cat garden

Well I seen these do it yourself cat gardens on line, and I have decided to try to do this myself. Because I wanted to help the health of my … Continue reading

January 9, 2018 · 1 Comment

American Propaganda

American Propaganda is a must watch. Please Note the follow: I do not own this video or the format they are on. I am only attempting to bring them to … Continue reading

January 9, 2018 · Leave a comment

Hopsin

I’m the dirty scoundrel, livin’ life on the down-low I’ve been to Hell, I sat with the man of the household My heart froze, but you don’t wanna know how … Continue reading

January 8, 2018 · Leave a comment

My son was a Columbine shooter. This is my story | Sue Klebold

My son was a Columbine shooter. This is my story | Sue Klebold Video Below. Please Note the follow: I do not own this video or the format they are … Continue reading

January 6, 2018 · Leave a comment

January 6st thoughts 

Can’t sleep. Why? My mind races with thoughts of “why do I only drop stuff at work when every ones there to see” or “yeah John doesn’t like you that’s … Continue reading

January 6, 2018 · Leave a comment

What I want for 2018

I currently live in a trailer. I own. by myself. with two cats. And drive a 04 ford explorer. I am working as a 1099 courier using my own car. … Continue reading

January 1, 2018 · Leave a comment

Does it matter?

I have come to believe that an A.I. has taken over our world. Craziest thing about that knowledge is there is nothing you can do about it. Because our smartest … Continue reading

December 31, 2017 · Leave a comment

Happy New Years Card to my Daughter Lilly (2017)

Nothing really to say here. I just really miss Lilly and wish I could see her. The holidays are the hardest. But I found this Happy New Year card and … Continue reading

December 30, 2017 · 2 Comments

Two Christmas cards to my daughter Lilly (2017)

Well it is that time a year again where people are busy getting read for the holiday. I did my Christmas cards this year on the 9th of December and … Continue reading

December 21, 2017 · 2 Comments

Nov Love you Miss you card to Lilly (2017)

Well it’s not been over a month since I was able to see my daughter Lilly Makar them two times. I am grateful for being able to see her but … Continue reading

December 4, 2017 · 2 Comments

A Good Suicide Note – 11.9.17

I look around and all I see is darkness, betrayal. No matter what the human condition will always do what’s best. But I search for belonging. And I get walked … Continue reading

November 9, 2017 · Leave a comment

Halloween Card to Lilly 2017

I mailed out, late, my Halloween Card / miss you card to my daughter Lilly Makar. I hope she likes it. I wanted to buy some candy and put the … Continue reading

November 7, 2017 · 2 Comments

THIS is the Real Reason a Global Systemic Failure is Imminent and Will Never Be Fixed!

This is a must watch video!!! &..@.-#–@.-#…@.–**|\/|1|<3**—@–#.@….-#..—-@& For Viewing my blog! Posted By: Michael J Granata Contact: 724-383-6008 (Google Voice) MichaelJGranata@gmail.com Express written permission is need to use, read, or … Continue reading

October 20, 2017 · Leave a comment

More work on the trailer Oct 18th

Well found our that the elbow on the out side of my hot water tank, picture below was spraying water everywhere. Picture was taken after I shut off the water … Continue reading

October 19, 2017 · Leave a comment

Lilly’s miss you card for September 2017.

This month is different. I was able to, with Amanda’s permission,  visit with Lilly on Saturday September 23rd and take her and her grandmother out to dinner. We went to … Continue reading

September 26, 2017 · 2 Comments

Places I applied for Employment

My WCSI Case manager, therapist and most recently the hearing officer at my mental health hearing keep asking where I applied for work. And to be honest I can never … Continue reading

September 20, 2017 · Leave a comment

305 hearing today

Today, September 19th 2017 I had my 305 review hearing. The judge reissued it for another 6 months. I am depressed about this.   &..@.-#–@.-#…@.–**|\/|1|<3**—@–#.@….-#..—-@& For Viewing my blog! Posted … Continue reading

September 19, 2017 · Leave a comment

Card sent to Lilly returned to me 9/11/17

Today the US postal service brought me back, again, a card I mailed to Lilly.  Her mother Amanda Makar decided not to sign for it or pick it up once … Continue reading

September 11, 2017 · 2 Comments

My attempt to buy Lilly school supplies and cloths (2017)

So it is August 3rd, as I start to right this, and the 2017 school year is about to start back up. The online 2017 /2018 Greater Latrobe school calendar … Continue reading

August 28, 2017 · Leave a comment

Texts between Amanda and myself 7/19 to 8/27 of 2017

So another 30 days and more texts messages to Amanda Makar my daughters Lilly Makar ‘s mother from myself Michael Granata and still she does not respond. Here are my … Continue reading

August 28, 2017 · 2 Comments

How much is that restaurant stealing from you?

I originally wrote this in July 30th of 2011. On a blog site I had before this one, I had totally forget where I wrote this in till it popped … Continue reading

August 21, 2017 · Leave a comment

Missing you card to my Daughter Lilly Makar

So its August and another month has gone by of my ex, Amanda Makar , not letting me see my daughter Lilly Makar. It has been 14 months now. I … Continue reading

August 15, 2017 · 3 Comments

West Newton has the worst book sale ever. 

Today I went to a book sale held at the Plumer house on Water Street in West Newton Pa. It was held by the West Newton Library. And let me … Continue reading

July 29, 2017 · Leave a comment

Texts between Amanda Makar and myself. May to July. 

Texts, from May to Mid July, are between Amanda Makar of Latrobe Pa, which doesn’t respond to text, calls or letters, and myself. The texts are all in the effort … Continue reading

July 21, 2017 · 2 Comments

The real Deadbeat, Amanda Makar

I haven’t been allowed to seen my daughter, Lilly Makar, in over a year because I don’t have the money to go to court. I send Lilly miss you cards … Continue reading

July 20, 2017 · Leave a comment

Glow stick

I found four lonely glow sticks that I bought maybe a year or so ago. I am sure I had a reason. I am sure that reason had to do … Continue reading

July 14, 2017 · 2 Comments

A Birthday card to my Daughter Lilly Makar. 

Today, June 22nd, is my daughter Lilly Makar ‘s birthday. I’m Monday I sent a card to her. I did not send a gift because 1 I am not sure … Continue reading

June 22, 2017 · 2 Comments

Card to Lilly June 2nd

A card I mailed out to Lilly Makar, my daughter, at the beginning of June 2017. &..@.-#–@.-#…@.–**|\/|1|<3**—@–#.@….-#..—-@& For Viewing my blog! Posted By: Michael J Granata Contact: 724-383-6008 (Google Voice) … Continue reading

June 16, 2017 · 2 Comments

What Amanda Makar, of Latrobe Pa, has stolen from me

I have been thinking about Amanda Makar , my ex, mother of my daughter, resident of Latrobe Pennsylvania and thief.  I got this letter in the mail from my daughters … Continue reading

May 10, 2017 · 1 Comment

5/3/17 – I love you card send out.

I sent out a new I love you / i miss you card today to my daughter, Lilly Makar, in Latrobe, Pa. I do not have enough cash to send … Continue reading

May 3, 2017 · 2 Comments

Texts between Me and my Ex Amanda Makar about seeing Lilly.

I once again did not get any responses for my Ex Amanda Makar to see my Daughter Lilly Makar this month either by text, phone or letter. Here are my … Continue reading

May 3, 2017 · 2 Comments

Is the struggle worth it?

I made the above picture on facebook from a good quote. I just wish I believed it, believed the struggle meant this or that.  That all this pain and hurt … Continue reading

April 30, 2017 · Leave a comment

Serving The Higher Self

The ego is simply a way for us to understand and attend to ourselves at the same time as we understand and attend to the world around us. In most … Continue reading

April 9, 2017 · Leave a comment

Card to Amanda Makar asking for visitation 4/7/17

I sent a card today to Amanda Makar asking to take my daughter Lilly Makar to dinner on the 15th. And if she doesn’t respond I will be going out … Continue reading

April 9, 2017 · 2 Comments

My experience with Freedom Pop Cell Service

Update: 5/9/17 I got billed 15.00 dollars for some reason then my phone stopped working again. Called them up at 1 (888) 743-8107 and after 30 minutes I got to … Continue reading

April 8, 2017 · Leave a comment

Congratulations on a good report card card 4/7/17

I got my daughter, Lilly Makar’s report card the other day and I did text my ex, Amanda Makar several times to see lilly so i could take her out … Continue reading

April 7, 2017 · 2 Comments

Miss you card to my daughter, Lilly Makar (4/1/17)

I sent out today a new Hello Kitty miss you card to my daughter Lilly Makar. I included two Loomis Bros Circus tickets that gets two kids in for free. … Continue reading

April 6, 2017 · 2 Comments

A card to Lilly’s Mother. 4/1/17

I sent out a card to Amanda Makar in Latrobe, Pa because she will not answer my calls or text messages. So incase she changed her number and didn’t tell … Continue reading

April 5, 2017 · Leave a comment

Texts between me and Lilly’s Mother Amanda Makar (March 2017)

I ended up not having a phone because of money issues, because I had to replace the motor in my explorer, I tried using Google voice via hangouts but I … Continue reading

April 1, 2017 · 2 Comments

Why Do Cartoon Characters Wear White Gloves?

This Wednesday i am writing about why cartoon characters wear gloves? Are they all criminals, well no. But I tried to read a “click bate” article about this and decided … Continue reading

March 1, 2017 · Leave a comment

2/27/17 Card n gift to Lilly

I mailed another miss you / love you card and gift today to my daughter Lilly Makar. The heart balloon hat chocolate at the bottom. It was a leftover half … Continue reading

February 28, 2017 · Leave a comment

When

Asking why just seems not to help anymore, maybe its because there is no answers or maybe because “why” is not the right question to ask. 000000000000000000000 When does the … Continue reading

February 28, 2017 · Leave a comment

This is awesome – AirMule

Behold The Future. The AirMule Drone Hauls 1,000 Pounds and Looks Like a Bug. youtube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8Mr9sET-Xc?rel=0&amp;controls=0&amp;showinfo=0&w=560&h=315 After 15 of development, Rafi Yoeli, founder and CEO of Urban Aeronautics says he … Continue reading

February 25, 2017 · Leave a comment

4:19 pM

In my heart my blood is like acid. Quietly killing me into utter blackness.   I am sitting here thinking about life and having no hope when I read the … Continue reading

February 24, 2017 · Leave a comment

Stop Comparing Yourself to Others

This hit home for me and my “Broken  theory” ————————————- by Madisyn Taylor There is nobody else like you in the world and this is worth celebrating rather than searching … Continue reading

February 23, 2017 · Leave a comment

Tick-Tock

“If you get only so many seconds if life is right, then i think I have wasted all of mine. Maybe I was borne without seconds. Maybe that’s why I … Continue reading

February 20, 2017 · Leave a comment

~Is~ ?

Is being quite about yourself a straight or weakness? Is just a defense made offense? A question bounces around my brain like a pig ball. Is being quite about yourself … Continue reading

February 19, 2017 · Leave a comment

SongS

Many songs has the idea of them looking insides at themselves.  I also have feeling, most of my life, I have been watching myself rather than do it the I … Continue reading

February 17, 2017 · Leave a comment

ILL MIND OF HOPSIN

Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm Life is a tour, I sit and ride along Taking some notes and then I write the song I’m staring down the road my … Continue reading

February 16, 2017 · Leave a comment

Bought Lilly Makar a Valentine’s day card with candy

I went food shopping today at Walmart and got my daughter, Lilly Makar , of Latrobe Pa, a Hello Kitty Valentine’s day card. shown below, and some Chocolates. and the … Continue reading

February 14, 2017 · 2 Comments

Get it out

I can see the letters but I don’t know what the words are. I wish I knew the words to release the pain that my soul feels. The letters run … Continue reading

February 14, 2017 · Leave a comment

Inside My Head

I have Monsters living in my head My Monsters don’t just come out at night They effect everything and make friends leave People do not understand why I do what … Continue reading

February 12, 2017 · Leave a comment

(412) 430-0644 Scam Alert

Sorry this took so long it is freezing in my house. It is currently 58 degrees. ——————————– Number they called me from (412) 430-0644, (412) 430-0775 Other Numbers: 201-499-7970, 202-618-4930, … Continue reading

February 10, 2017 · Leave a comment

When you try to eat to feel something

I bought Sweet~N~Sour Chicken with fried rice with Egg Roll, Plus an extra small shrimp fried rice with Crab Lagoons. I then bought from the dollar store a bag of UTZ … Continue reading

February 9, 2017 · Leave a comment

Chestnut Ridge Counseling Closing in July 2017

Update 2/13/17 i am at chestnut ridge and the lady at the front desk said that they are leaving but the county is phasing in someone else. And that company … Continue reading

February 9, 2017 · Leave a comment

Thousands of Dead Bees Wash Ashore

I wish I was a bee looking up at the sky taking my last breath. ———————- Thousands of dead and dying bees are washing up on a popular beach in … Continue reading

February 9, 2017 · Leave a comment

like the words came out of my head

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February 6, 2017 · Leave a comment

1/25/17 I love you & miss you card for Lilly

I bought and shipping out a new card for my daughter Lilly Makar today. I sent it Certified Mail so that I can prove that it arrived and who signed … Continue reading

January 25, 2017 · 2 Comments

Angry Bob

I just wanted to share. Angry Bob was angry “I will go to a basketball game” thought Bob. “Perhaps there will have one of those promotions where each fan gets … Continue reading

January 20, 2017 · Leave a comment

Mailed out Lilly’s Christmas Gifts

I mailed out my daughters Lilly Makar Christmas gifts. I left bad bacuse it took me to the 11th of Janauray 2017 to mail them out because I could not … Continue reading

January 17, 2017 · 2 Comments

December 2016, texting to try to see my daughter, Lilly, for Christmas.

What more can I say then these are the texts that I sent out to try to see my daughter Lilly Makar to her mother Amanda Makar from Latrobe Pa … Continue reading

January 17, 2017 · 3 Comments

My Whovian Christmas (2016)

My Christmas was not bad despite that it was over showed with depression from not being able to see my daughter Lilly Makar. Most of my gifts where Doctor Who … Continue reading

December 28, 2016 · Leave a comment

Doctor Who Holidays ( Wholidays ) & link for google calendar

Hello fellow Whovians If you are like me you like all thing The Doctor and celebration of certain events with fellow Whovians is a fun part of our fandom. And … Continue reading

December 18, 2016 · Leave a comment

12/17/16

I can’t live like this I can’t live this life You just ignore me But I blend in like the wall paper I can’t ignore them The voices that scar … Continue reading

December 17, 2016 · Leave a comment

Two Christmas, Love You, Miss You Cards for Lilly (2016)

On Monday I mailed out Two Christmas cards to my daughter Lilly Makar, alone with my other Christmas cards. The reason I mailed out two of the same card is … Continue reading

December 14, 2016 · 2 Comments

New Love / Miss you Card for Lilly

I sent my daughter Lilly Makar a new I love you and miss you card. It was mailed on December 8th 2016. I do not know if Lilly is getting … Continue reading

December 8, 2016 · 3 Comments

The mistake of trying to own a car (Journal 12/7/16)

Living with mental illness effects everything you touch. The things people do that seems so normal like work, have a car, keeping an apartment, or home ownership is often a … Continue reading

December 7, 2016 · Leave a comment

My Thoughts

If you believe your government is truthful then ponder this. The government  says alien air craft or ufo’s are not real yet we do not possess the technology needed for … Continue reading

December 3, 2016 · Leave a comment

12/1/16 Journal of Reflection

I was talking to someone on Facebook about the year ending and hoping 2017 is a better year.  But then I thought about December of 2015 and saying “I hope … Continue reading

December 1, 2016 · Leave a comment

A Thanksgiving card for Lilly (2016)

Another holiday will pass without being able to talk to or see my daughter Lilly Makar . And I miss her so much! I never really did not do anything … Continue reading

November 23, 2016 · Leave a comment

I got me a TARDIS :)

Okay so it is not a real time machine, lol. So I was out shopping with family that just moved back to Pennsylvania from the west coast and I wanted … Continue reading

November 20, 2016 · Leave a comment
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